I have a yellow cactus ... A yellow cactus that doesn't sting...The only alive thing in my whole room except me...well, I guess the yellow cactus is much alive than I am...but still, I breath. Surrounded by 4 walls, I am searching to escape in a different World. Where loneliness is forbidden.
I am thinking to thank "somebody" for not saying anything about last night. Even if I wished he did, I know is better like this. He knows better.
Everybody is chilling around....I have to read but my eyes hurt and I don't feel like reading protein shits. I just wanna chill to...he is "there"...at least tonight I don't want to be disturbed from my total zen (with butterflies, of course).
UPDATE: If I would tell you that I haven't slept alone in 5 years, that everything around seems to fall apart, that sometimes my heart hurts so bad that I feel like ripping my heart out of the chest with my own little hands, I would fall apart. And I don't have time to fall apart.
Good night!
Maybe loneliness is the way we can find ourselves, our true selves....
ReplyDeleteExactly... loneliness sometime IS what you need, but not necessarily what you want...
ReplyDeleteWell, I have learned that what you WANT is not the same with what you NEED. And those words came from the man I despperately love... So, he says that I want him, but I don;t need him.
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